I'm a bit shocked that two months have passed already. Though, if reminded in the middle of the night I would likely wonder why time is going so slowly.
Perspective is funny like that.
You're starting to emerge from the newborn fog and engage with people. We've gotten some smiles and coos and both of those have kept me on the right edge of sanity when the days get rough.
And they do get rough. Having two kids is hard. The perfectionist in me is perpetually frustrated that I can't seem to give either of you everything you deserve. But perhaps that's better. The world won't give you everything you deserve either, so perhaps it's good that you learn to cope with that now.
Besides, I wouldn't trade our situation for anything, (well, I'd ask for a little more sleep). Your big sister loves you more than anything. She's always asking me if I'm going to remember to bring you when we go places or putting your pacifier in when my hands are full. She makes sure you always have your special blanket, just like she does. You're going to be blessed by her presence in your life more than you'll ever know.
But I imagine that that will go both ways. Already, the two of you are very different. You're my snuggler, my little koala bear, always attached to me somehow. I don't mind, really. It makes for a good workout, holding you for most of my daily chores. And it's something that I didn't really have with Miss Bean. She's still an independent wiggler, always on the move. (We have to chase her around for our hugs and kisses).
You're teaching me lots of things... patience, perseverance, grace, hope, and the awesomeness of unconditional love. Most of the early traits are tested during sleep times. You're not a very good sleeper. I am blessed with one consistent stretch at bedtime. Most days you'll sleep about 5 hours when we go to bed at night. Sometimes more, sometimes less. After that feeding, it's kind of a toss up as to whether you'll settle back down easily or not. During the day? Well, let's just say that we're working on it.
Sleep used to come to you easily. In fact, you used to sleep almost constantly. But as you've grown more aware of the world, you're having a much harder time falling asleep and staying asleep. As of yesterday, we're trying a new swaddling technique that might in fact be absolute magic. You have a tendency to try to claw at your face with your flailing hands when you're tired, which in turn wakes you up... it was a vicious cycle. But the swaddle seems to work well. You've actually been able to settle yourself, which is amazing to me since you almost always prefer to be held any other time.
I'm still trying to wrap my head around parenting two kids, but one thing I know and try to remember is that it gets better every day. For that I'm thankful.
Love you, little koala kid,